So life has been interesting.
I can’t go into all the details yet, because a lot of the changes that have happened since late May/early June are still fairly private, and I think most of the people reading this blog are actually people we know, not random strangers on the internet (and even for the random strangers, Rainy City has a very large poly community, so today’s internet stranger could be tomorrow’s new friend at a meet up).
Living with Catalyst has been good, but it’s quite different living with a doctor when you’re seeing them not just on vacation or weekends off, but while they’re working 80 hour weeks. Catalyst is still adjusting to how busy I’ve been, and as a result, how tired and low energy I am at home, and I’m still adjusting to the fact that he’s not Ember, and he doesn’t need as much space. However, he’s also like Ember in other ways, and sometimes hesitant about being more verbally direct about wanting to spend time with me or when suggesting things he wants to do.
I have a terrible habit of getting lost in the internet. I’ll sit down to do one thing and then next thing I know I’m doing ten things, nine of which I could be doing later and chances are high that none of them are actually the thing I sat down to do. So while I really want to spend more one on one time with my boyfriends, sometimes I’ll sit down on my computer and oops, my one day off this week is half gone and there’s all these other errands I meant to do today.
So yeah. We’re working on that. It helps that we’re now a lot more settled into our apartment, so there’s fewer things that have to get done on any given day, leaving more time to actually connect with each other
My relationship with Ember is so far surviving my living with Catalyst. In fact, it’s more than surviving. I think we’re doing quite well right now. It’s a big thing, living with someone (especially after moving to another city for said someone), but even though I’ve been looking forward to living with an SO for years and years and years now, my relationship with Ember is something I treasure, and I’m not going to set it aside just because I’m getting what I’ve always wanted with someone else.
And I haven’t let go of my dream of living with the two of them someday. :) It’d be pretty awesome. They’re both tech people and into the idea of automated homes, so someday I could end up in the kind of home where the temperature adjusts when you walk in, or your music follows you from room to room, or something even more amazing.
And no, I haven’t come out to my parents yet, and I have no idea when I’ll do it. Sometimes I feel like I must do it asap, and then I get scared of the fallout, or how it’s going to affect them (they just went through something major and stressful and the last thing I want to do is add to that). I think part of me is waiting to see how things settle in my life, because I want to come out with a more clear picture of what I’m doing, what we’re doing, and how things will look, but right now a few key things are still a little up in the air.
Life is good; there’s just a lot going on behind the scenes, as usual.